urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:txdmbchick txdmbchick txdmbchick 2004-09-27T19:26:35Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:txdmbchick:2004 2004-09-27T19:26:35Z 2004-09-27T19:26:35Z While taking a break from homework I thought that I would make a quick entry since I have not posted in a while.<br /><br />Last week I spent my clinical training in L&D. I saw two very different cases. The first case that I saw was very happy-a normal vaginal birth with a beautiful baby girl. A loving family, mom, dad, big brother-it honestly was an ideal situation.<br /><br />The second case-was not as happy. A C-section in which the family was very loving, but the baby, a beautiful baby girl as well-did not make it. She had internal complications-of which were severe respiratory compromise. They intubated her 4 times, trying to save her life, but were unsuccessful. Just to describe the case again, and all the emotions in the room at the time would bring me to tears again.<br /><br />I did not play a big role in that case, mainly just observing. However, the NICU team was working so quickly I was able to grab the father-I mean literally grab the father-and give him just a few moments with his dying daughter. The moments he got to spend with her alive. <br /><br />To say the least-this area of the medical profession is not for me. I rotate through Pediatrics the next 2 weeks. Hopefully, I will not have such a sad case again. Otherwise, things are going very well. My brother just visited for a few days-it was so good to see him. We have never been to close, but I think that especially throughout the past year or two that has brought us closer together. Well, at least to the point that we do not fight anymore. <br /><br />All for now-must get back to homework-<br /><br />Rest in peace and enjoy heaven little girl... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:txdmbchick:1727 2004-09-02T03:05:46Z 2004-09-02T03:05:46Z School has been killing me the past week or so. I have already had three tests which determine whether or not I stay in the nursing program for this semester. These tests really know how to make my BP rise and make me anxious, then again it is important to realize that these are only tests.<br /><br />After my eight hours of lecture a day-since we have not started our clinical rotations yet-every day when I leave the univeristy and drive home I get a nice long smell of the lake turning. I am not very good with enviormental terms, but all I know is that it smells like rotten eggs around here. Since I have moved here, three years ago, this has occured about once a year. From what I understand the bottom of the lake somehow surfaces to the top...including all the dead fish etc. etc. Well-let me just say it is not a pleasant experience living around a lake when it goes through this process. (Then again this could just be another weird TX thing!)<br /><br />I am still very nervous about me Pediatric rotation. One of my clinical instructors told us today that we would all put an NG tube down a neo-nate. VERY SCARY. Not to mention all of the Maternity videos I have seen. Ugh-<br />Despite all that-I still want to have a family several years after I graduate. <br /><br />Hopefully I will be getting a puppy soon. One of my close friends in nursing school, her lab is having puppies and so I think I am going to get one of hers. I am really excited; she is due to have the puppies in two weeks. <br /><br />Even though only 10-I better study some and get to bed... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:txdmbchick:1384 2004-08-27T00:47:21Z 2004-08-27T00:47:21Z Notebook Soundtrack 1) What's your favorite destination for relaxation in your part of Texas?<br /><br />This is a tough question. Honestly, I would have to say San Antonio is a very nice place to visit-it is unique. However, not too quiet. For quiet I would have say the rinki-dink lake behind my house. Nothing like Jordan Lake, but in times of desperation it will suffice. <br /><br />2) What accomplishment are you most proud of in life?<br /> <br />Wow-I thought the last one was hard--I can not think of one specific event right now... As corny as it may sound, just not giving up, especially after my last huge break-up. Probably getting the job I have now, as a nurse tech, and believing in myself just a little bit more...<br /><br />3) Would you rather have an alien growing out of your side or be the kids locked in that guy's basement? <br /> <br />Definitely be the kids locked in that guy's basement-there's always a way to get out :)<br /><br />4) What's your favorite memory of hanging out with me?<br /><br />There was one specific time I remember you and I sitting in the back of your old house on Sunrise. You had gotten me a stuffed animal and an oreo milkshake-we just talked that entire evening. That is probably so dear to me because you just wanted to get to know me, who I was-you were so sincere. I loved that. (Not to mention all the times at random truck stops when we talked allot :) )<br /><br />5) What's your favorite thing about Cory?<br /><br />He is always upbeat. Not in a bad way, but he has a very good sense of humor. He knows when to take things serious of course, but he does not have this underlying sense of negativity. Good guy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:txdmbchick:1105 2004-08-24T19:18:09Z 2004-08-24T19:18:09Z Notebook Soundtrack As the events of the last month or so begin to fade away...I want to thank some of my friends...some of my best friends. I am very blessed to have friends of which I share much in common with and friends that are very opposite of myself. Nothing in the effect of being better or worse, just a matter of difference. <br /><br />I have been studying today for tests I have this week in nursing school. How is it possible to have tests before you have even had a lecture? Approx. a year and 4 months to go-Commencement December 10th, 2005 @ 10am. More than likely I am being too sentimental right now, I can be a mushy girl a times...<br /><br />Nonetheless I wanted to say thank you to those who have listened to me cry, encouraged me, and not said anything at all when they could have said harmful things. While I did not come back for a second visit this summer, thank you to my friends in NC... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:txdmbchick:959 2004-08-17T01:18:33Z 2004-08-17T01:18:33Z I went to a wedding this past weekend. It was in Abilene, about three and a half hours away from where I live. It was a long drive, but that is only the beginning of the story...<br /><br />The wedding took place in front a house that is still under construction. With red clay in the front yard, a tarp was placed so folding chairs could be set up for the some 25 guests to sit. With some people in jeans, others in dresses...it was quite the eclectic bunch. The bride walked down the sidewalk to some music from City of Angels and they said their 'I Do's.' Some mexican food and cake later, I caught the bouquet and we left...<br /><br />With the entire affair having started almost and hour late, sitting in the blazing sun...I have to say this I have never seen two people more in love. While I didn't know either of them very well, you did not need to in order to tell how much they cared for each other. I know, obvious right, it is their wedding day they should be happy. Unfortunately I think that is missed sometimes. While as shallow as it may sound I was not aesthetically pleased with the ceremony...but was definitely touched by what I saw... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:txdmbchick:539 2004-08-12T02:59:45Z 2004-08-12T02:59:45Z After pulling a 12 hour shift on Monday and an 8 hour on Tuesday...it was nice to have today off work. (even though I was running errands all day) I finally got the CD player in my car fixed, laundry done, bank stuff etc. etc...good to catch up on some things. However, the scariest thing is that I bought my books for this fall semester because I already have some reading assignments. <br /><br />Without rambling too much, I am so scared about this semester...Pediatrics and OB. Ugh. I love kids, but it is going to be heart breaking. Just my Pediatric book weighs 11 lbs. So I can already tell that I need to get my butt kicked into gear for this fall. Everything is starting to work out...I love work...took care of some very sick patients this week. STC-5 is my favorite unit, a step down from the ICU and they take overflow from the ER. I am still very interested in acute care nursing, but do enjoy geriatrics. I have been doing research on Master's programs, and have decided that I am definitely going to get my MSN. So-maybe I will be done with school by the time I am 24/25? We'll see...<br /><br />As for now...heading off to bed so I can get up for work at 5:45am... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:txdmbchick:377 2004-08-09T01:54:54Z 2004-08-09T01:54:54Z Three Doors Down I am going to try this journal thing one more time. I think that it will be good for me. <br /><br />Today after church, my mom got on me about not working enough...that hurt my feelings. It is hard when you get depressed at times to actually get out of bed and go to work. Nonetheless, I am going to try and improve on that-I am going to work at least 40 hours this week at the hospital. I am a nurse tech at a local hospital, and will be graduating from a local university within the next year and a half with my BSN. Then-off to the real world!<br /><br />Having grown up in Chapel Hill, NC...moving to Texas three years ago was quite the culture shock. Leaving friends, dealing with the climate change, and new school it was enough at the time to make someone want to revert into a very deep cave..even for a girl :) Surprising now, after finding my niche' in life, nursing, I am becoming more content with myself...where I am in life. It is a humbling profession.<br /><br />Recently, for reasons in which I would much rather not divulge at this point, I have felt like I have been under allot of critcism, but for now I just want to start over. I am hoping that with this journal I can begin to write about new events and my new start...